I see you more than most people see their loves. We actually had a relationship in the past. We laugh together, cried together while laughing. I see your sleepy face and find it adorable that you are so clumsy in the early morning/late night. You aren't good with your feelings but witty with your comebacks. Our banter is smart and quick. We have our moments of disagreement but nothing that can't be fixed over a meal of eggs and hash brown or pasta and garlic bread. You are my cheeseburger, everything fried and everything shared, partner in crime. Equipped with hands that are ready to lift, build, flip, turn, help in any way possible. There are times where it feels like there is nothing you wouldn't do for me but I don't think its cause I'm special, I think it's just in your nature. You don't judge me for what I say but how I say it, you don't count my calories and you don't laugh when I turn into a vegetarian the same week we eat steak.
Sometimes you see me and when you do the world is quiet....but other times you are just enjoying what life is giving you and there's nothing wrong with that except that I notice. I notice when we are in a bubble together and its just us, just you and me...I also notice when its just you. You and your responsibilities, and your duties to fulfill but there are these little specs in time where you come back to me, and its just us again. You make it hard not to love you, you have equal taste in movies and feel the importance of dreaming as I do. You are a worthy opponent in any debate, whether it be hypothetical or not.
To me, you shine the stars and hung the moon, to you, I changed your life in an unplanned way. Your baby face and smooth skin, your glorious hair and pouty mouth, your pouty mouth that holds soft lips. The ripples in your arms and sexy in your smile, the way that you flip your hair and walk in jeans. Your cute little butt that I obsess over that hides under your back dimples. My GOD man, you are incredible. But, do you see me? Do you know that I pay attention to how you like your coffee? Or whether its an iced or hot coffee kind of day? Or how I know you have been affected by what I said in such a way you were bothered? ( like little ole me could bother you) Did you know that when you smile genuinely its like the clouds open up and sing Hallelujah and only I can hear them? Did you know that I know when you are truly laughing vs fake laughing because your mouth gets wider and you throw your head back? Did you know that I looked for contact solution for you so it will always be on hand when your eyes get dry? Do you know that I was so happy to find my headband so it would be ready for you to use when you come over? Did you know that I know your palate so well, that I can tell if you are going to truly like something before it even touches your lips?
These things my darling are all things that are special to me, the warmth when you cuddle me to the strength in your hand hold, I am in love with you, your sweet kisses and tender moans, I'm in love with you. Your sweat that coincides with my own, I am in love with you.
But as much as you like to give yourself credit for being observant, you do not see me. You do not see me seeing you. Sure, you know I like you and you don't really believe I love you, we have a good thing going and why would we mess that up? But my love, I've been enraptured by even the thought of you, a simple friendship would never satisfy the hunger I have for you, I am simply ravenous.
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